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| 09:32am 13/05/2007 |
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mood:  blah music: Rx Bandits - Apparition
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Completely. Good thing I escaped that mess, but I feel bad. Yikes. The show yesterday went okay. There was no one there, but we played well. First show = complete. I dropped a stick about 10 seconds into the first song. After that it was mostly smooth sailing. Dropped sticks are no big deal anyway. It comes with having a loose grip (so I don't kill my wrists), a lot of sweat, and some nerves. First show, deal. Good thing I forgot my earplugs. My china made me deaf. I still haven't regained all my hearing. I forgot what it was like to play without earplugs. Today will be good. Hopefully things are going well on other fronts as well We'll see what tomorrow brings. |
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| Well. |
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| 08:43pm 06/05/2007 |
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mood: blah music: Brazil - A Year In Heaven
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Okay. I'm okay. Sometimes I'm not sure, but I am, in fact, okay. Listening to Brazil makes me okay. I have a philosophy essay due tomorrow. Did I do it? No. Too much time working this week. I could focus on how blah I've been, but Hot Fuzz was a fantastic movie. Definitely near the top on the list of awesomeness. I guess that's enough for now. |
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| Well, well! |
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| 02:59am 26/04/2007 |
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mood:  calm music: Brazil - The Vapours
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Today was fairly eventful, I guess. I hope things turn out well. I'm pretty surprised I actually made it to this point in 1 piece. I am no less than terrible at this stuff. I think that's good enough for an entry. Peace. |
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| So...People tryin' to take my munny. |
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| 01:12pm 24/04/2007 |
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mood:  scared music: Arm The Citizen - Sunday's Best
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Yea. So, Chiodos old record company threatened to sue me over a torrent I posted 1 1/2 years ago. Luckily, I got out of that jam fairly quickly. Band practice also didn't go so well last night. So, the past few days haven't been the best. I'm working on...things...I hope things go well. It would mean a lot. But I'm also not very good at these...things. Well, I just need to hope for the best. Have a wonderful day! Eeep. |
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| Dearest LiveJournal... |
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| 11:41pm 31/03/2007 |
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mood:  tired music: Brazil - By This River
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I am in quite the pickle. What do I do with myself? My mind is mush. Someone needs to wake me up. I also need to actually be a man. Yea. Grow up, Erik. Sadly, I don't know if I can do that right now. Anxiety is eating me alive. But at the same time, some things are going just dandy. You know, I'm incredibly content with some things and just completely out of whack about others. Is this really anything new? Well, I'm just not sure. There aren't many things I'm sure of right now. And that's why I'm writing in this thing, right? I mean, I hardly ever do. But now that I feel out of it enough, here I am. As usual, not much to say, but I try to babble on for a bit. It's supposed to help to write/type in a journal. I hope it does. I need motivation. And I REALLY REALLY need less anxiety. Just go away. Please? Thank you. I guess that's all I have to say. I've got work in the morning, and I'm going to be a sloth most of the time I'm there. Slowly trudging along and feeling discontent. I guess I just let the stupidest things get to me. Ever wonder what someone is like and never actually really find out? Yea. I'm good at that. Farewell. |
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| The happenings. |
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| 09:23pm 15/01/2007 |
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mood: calm music: Pain Of Salvation - Scarsick
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Alright. So I still don't have my last grade from last semester. The fuck? It's been about a month since my last final. At least I'm on the Dean's List for the grades I did get.
In other news. I'm drumming again. For a spiffy band. I think they're called Move The Rabbit or something? Anyway, we practice a lot, and it's going to be tight.
That's all the happenings of my life. Vacation is over in less than 2 weeks. Yea. I'm just that exciting.
How does one acquire a taste for carbonated drinks? |
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| It just wasn't meant to be. |
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| 10:43pm 21/12/2006 |
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mood:  chipper music: Brand New - Jesus Christ
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Not in my basement, ya heard?
Oh, and apparently, I don't love music. LAWLZ. Go play some more chords of power. Not being generic = anti-music.
And what I do won't sell. Kthx. We're not all wannabe Pete Wentz's.
That's my really short rant for the night. Hope you all respond. :P Oh wait, that never happens. |
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| Time to update again. Be glad, eh? |
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| 07:54pm 19/12/2006 |
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mood:  indifferent music: Wicked - Dancing Through Life
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Hey look. Another update. Fucking crazy d00d. Had my Social Problems final today. Up for tomorrow, I need to write 2 essays and do my Music Theory III take home. I'm such a procrastinator.
Sometimes I wonder whether I need anything. It's probably just something I want pretty badly. Nothing really necessary besides oxygen, food, and water. So why do I act like I need anything else? Hmmm. It's a wonderful life, sure is. Sometimes I don't try at all; sometimes I try way too hard. I think I might be trying way too hard right now. No reason to try to think up some deeper meaning for anything, right? Maybe. |
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| Finals...Yea... |
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| 01:41pm 18/12/2006 |
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mood: blah music: Wicked - As Long As You're Mine
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I finished my 2 philosophy essays due today about an hour ago. Now I've got to make the effort to go to UMB to turn them in. I need to shower first. Then it's off to studying for my Social Problems final (Tuesday) before a recording session. Then 2 essays for Music Of The World due Wednesday. Then my Basis Of Life final on Thursday, and I'll be done. Good luck to me. I procrastinate far higher than the legal limit. Oh, and I need to stop listening to Wicked, Bright Eyes, and Beloved. Sometime soon, srsly. That's all for now. I don't think anyone actually reads this since I've updated about twice since school started. |
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| I don't think I really have much to say. |
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| 11:50pm 16/12/2006 |
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mood:  contemplative music: Beloved - Going Through The Motions
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I want nothing else but to see through your eyes.
Life has been okay. Finals, procrastinating. Could be better, but I guess the stars haven't been aligned in my favor. Damn stars and their alignments. Anyway, whatever. That's all I have to say tonight. I'm a tired old man. |
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| Not much to say as usual. |
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| 05:09pm 21/09/2006 |
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mood: chipper music: Killswitch Engage - This Is Absolution
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Loving some of the new Killswitch Engage from what I have. This Is Absolution is rather lovely. I like Adam's singing voice a lot better than Howard's. School has been okay, but I haven't been reading which may screw me when it comes to quizzes and tests coming up.
My first piano lesson was pretty nice. I hope I have more ability with this than I did with drums. It'll certainly feed my composition love. Hopefully that feeds my desire to play piano and learn to sing.
I'm writing the biggest pile of shit of a song now. It'll probably be online on my Shattered Star MySpace later. It doesn't fit with anything I've ever done because it's just a bunch of noise. |
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| I promised the world... |
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| 02:23am 03/09/2006 |
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mood:  amused music: From First To Last - Note To Self
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Alright. I haven't much to talk about unless you care to chat...
BUT!!! Arm The Citizen's EP will be fucking done within a few months. My laptop has been gone over 2 weeks. Once it returns, things will once again be rollin'. So, remember that. 11 track EP. It makes no sense, but it works. 6 full length songs; 5 interludes. 30 minutes of material.
Thieves Of Fire EP = 3 dollars.
Also, I'm beginning a new project. It's looking to involve Sean Sears and MAYBE Jon. Jim will do art and maybe help with lyrics. It's going to be electronic/epic/pop punk/post-hardcore. It'll once again be mainly programmed because real musicians cannot be trusted. Sean might throw in some of his own piano playing. Jon playing guitar would be FUCKING NICE. I don't see that happening since his is broken. I could throw in some drums, but I've pretty much stopped playing so maybe not. I plan for this project to release an EP by the start of 2007. I have much higher selling expectations for this group because it'll have some pop elements. I hope I have the vocal capabilities to do some lead vocals. My nasal head voice punk vocals aren't the easiest to sing in key. Maybe I'll throw in some of my operatic vocals as well; Probably not. The operatic stuff seems more Arm The Citizen. If not, then this project will fall into an endless abyss. Jon would have to take lead vocals for this project as well, and it'd end up sounding like a more musical idiot friendly Arm The Citizen. 6 songs + 1 bonus cover.
The cover is the ultimate cover song of course. From First To Last - Emily! I'm turning it into a power ballad with string arrangements and maybe a choir. While this song probably makes most of you cringe, I'm going to further draw out the cheesiness and immaturity of this song.
This EP will be around 25 minutes, and it'll also be 3 dollars. Both EPs will have artwork and everything as well as decent production. I do my best. I'm not an experience producer, and I like to leave errors in the songs. The human touch is what music these days is missing among other things.
The plan is to sell these on PayPal. I expect to sell up to 500 copies of the Arm The Citizen music and 1000 of the other project. |
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| So much to say, but I'm not going to say it. |
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| 02:08am 29/08/2006 |
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mood: tired music: Pain Of Salvation - Pluvius Aestivus
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I haven't updated in well over a month. So, summer vacation is pretty much over. Death metal project with Howie just started on Sunday. It's going to be INSANE. I also have my own little project with Jon. I've done all the writing and programming so far. There's a link below for it.
I'm not sure what else to talk about. I've done a lot of hanging out, and I went to a bunch of shows.
Oh yea, I'm likely quitting Stop & Shop VERY SOON. Yay for having a potential new job.
Here's my latest musical project. I like it. Most people like it at least to some extent.
Arm The Citizen |
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| 03:28am 22/07/2006 |
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mood: contemplative music: On The Might Of Princes - For Meg
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I really have nothing to update about. Summer has been pretty fun. Ups, downs. Closer, further. Who knows? I'm still lacking in the honey department, but since when is that a new thing?
I've been a bum lately when it comes to drumming. I haven't really played in at least a week. I just lack any motivation. Do I still want to drum? I'm not sure if I care to practice anymore to conquer any technical aspects.
I don't think I'll ever know what I want to do. Even if I get a degree in sociology or whatever. Is that what I want? Maybe I'll know in the future, but at the moment I have no idea. A lot of people seem to have known what they wanted for a long time. I thought I knew what I wanted in the past, but things didn't always work out. Now I've just been rethinking; I still lack a conclusion.
It's kind of weird I suppose. I've been content for the longest time, but I guess I'm not THAT content. I'm not satisfied with my life, your life, my future, my country, this world, anything. |
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